February 2010
where did I go wrong
“I can never be like her or them. I am not small or skinny. I don’t have straight hair. My style is way different. I’m not this.. I’m not that. Blahblahblah. I am not like the girls he wants.”
How did I become like this? Because that’s what I’ve been hearing from myself lately? Why am I so self-consumed and self-conscious?
I told myself that I will...
January 2010
The original formspring
Honestly, who are you texting? No one Could you use some sleep right now? Of course Name something great that will happen in the next few weeks? WF? Has there been a day this week you just wanted to say “fuck it”? Plenty of days Was yesterday better than today? Both fun in certain ways Are you happy with the way things are going? Yeeehhh Who was the last person you had a conversation...
of all people, why does it have to be you?
You’re my last breath You’re a breath of fresh air to me Hi, I’m empty So tell me you care for me You’re the first thing And the last thing on my mind In your arms I feel Sunshine On a promise A day dream yet to come Time is upon us Oh but the night is young
“The Time Is Now” by Moloko, remix
I want something big to happen. I don’t know what I want, but something BAM, something worth remembering..
shhhhhhhh
14535.) i pretty wonder why every blogsecret seems to be concerned with unrequited love. Or, broken love. Or, love never expressed. Why does it have to be like every person suffers when they fall in love? Or, is it really love at all?
14519.) The only question i have to ask: Who am i? Don’t know myself.
14518.) You can be whoever you want.
14515.) most of the time, i feel that it’s...
I did look before I fell, but hope was my bungee rope and it kind of snapped. *ouch. Oh well, I’m still holding onto the remaining threads. I’m just asking for heartbreak, I know it. But what do I have to lose?
shhhhhhhh
14504.) I had my fingers crossed.
14481.) I don’t understand why everyone doesn’t dream as big as possible. I mean, you never know, so why not?
"Feel It In My Bones", by Tiesto ft. Tegan and...
I find the map and draw a straight line Over rivers, farms, and state lines The distance from ‘A’ to where you’d be It’s only finger-lengths that I see I touch the place where I’d find your face My finger in creases of distant dark places I hang my coat up in the first bar There is no peace that I’ve found so far The laughter penetrates my silence As drunken men...
Miss ya
Do you honestly have any regrets? Yes, sometimes. Who doesn’t. Describe the shirt you are wearing? Sen10r shirt. Hαve you ever cried over a text messαge? Bleh ; ( Of course. Delete α yeαr of your life, or stαrt over in α new town? Start over in a new town, most def How exactly αre you feeling right now? Annoyed, PO’ed, content, happy, sore Which is harder: wαlking αwαy from...
shhhhhhhh
14460.) I talk and give advice like a big know it all. But when it comes to my life, I am totally lost.
14419.) when were texting each other, i always wait at least 3 minutes until i send the next text so i dont seem hopelessly in love with you.
14401.) I hate it when my father talks about the future - universities, courses, med school, law school, etc. I feel like he’s shoving all his...
What I've learned yesterday?
I’ve officially mastered the art of guidette dancing.
Or so Kade thinks. I trust him. BUAHAHA <3
*yawn
I think that shy guys are incredibly cute. A stranger has complimented me before. I always hold the door open if somebody behind me is going through the same door. The last shoes I wore were black. I own a pair of white flip flops. I have a personal xanga. I doodle on my notes during class sometimes. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. I actually study for tests. I cannot do a cartwheel. I can...
Little bit
I think I’m a
shhhhhhhh
14389.) I told myself I didn’t like you. I couldn’t like you. But when I saw you smile, I couldn’t help myself.
14385.) Despite what you may think, I don’t build walls. You create your own barriers, and that’s not my fault.
14378.) I don’t like it when my friends talk to the guys I like, I get secretly jealous - I get like this with certain friends. :-X
14348.) I have...
The weather reminds me of this song
There’s somethin’ ‘bout the way The street looks when it’s just rained There’s a glow off the pavement Walk me to the car And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there In the middle of the parking lot … And I don’t know how it gets better than this You take my hand and drag me head first Fearless And I don’t know why but with you I’d dance...
“Love is the harmony.
Desire is the key.
Love is a symphony,
Now play it with...”
– Lykke Li, “Melodies and Desires” 